Talk to myself.
I want I expect a lot from myself, what I didn't expect to see.
Is that I crippled myself the point, that I can't even stand for myself because the point sometimes you can't stand for yourself you keep even speak it's like being dead or alive.
I That's the question are you tell me, the life people just go from the bar drinking and driving, makes it seems like a fun little joy ride.
Where to the point we're spending money on shit you don't need to kill you on the spot is the shit that you don't really need because you might be alone forever is that's what you see.
That's because you didn't give life a chance please play the cards right you might score yourself a little something, play the cards wrong you fucked up life you're not a virgin when you die, so you see things are not what it's cracked up to be, I understand.
Find that edge just stupid a way enjoy something have fun, not get high just fuck up life and disappoint everyone you have a meeting everyone goddamn has purpose.
But I'll people you wouldn't have of it you wouldn't have a company you wouldn't have friends, you want to have a social link.
You don't play people as cards you make sure you are one you actually are because no one gets to choose beggars can't be chooser or lose everything. Life is not a simple game, you see.
It's complicated just like a goddamn relationship, where you say your partner is the worst one do you ever meet.
I don't get that, because i never been one right now.
I see that I would learn things that's what you to learn to exceed past expectations, you have to do that every day.
I know that's complicated but you can't give up you can't you lose a lot of things, you lose a lot of things in mind taking the prick out and burn.
That is not how you live start a gateway drug you're not post to take that that is how money works that is how modern day works you see technology is a different subject do you lose jobs because you improve in most of things computers over knowledge.
Technology take the hard road and you try to find a simple road just makes it more complicated over the instruction manual.
Life doesn't have a manual you were born to give choices wether, if you born or genderized as boy, or a girl, trans.
What you ever you do I don't control that I understand, that is where I do not trust myself.
I repeat, I do not trust myself within the range of deciding what to do.
Because I am afraid.
I am afraid of how everyone judges, I am afraid of my goddamn skin are you afraid of the typical knowledge of political sense of our country why do we have this man do we not judge by character, or we be judged by our publicity.
I am worried of the future because America has a noose around our necks for we owe a lot to China that IOU never given.
What do we do..?
What are we meant to be is your decision whatever you do be kill you receive you bring life create a good future.
You crash your car with a child running infront of your vehicle, it was the night you feel that pain scrunch up your heart, or if you have one, I'm not complaining or convinced.
Wither if your a Socialpath or Psychopath.
You know you have a new box of durable trash bags and a shovel in the back. You have a warrant at your neck to chill your thoughts of confrontation with the jury and the crying parents
What do you, in a situation like this?
Hand yourself in, or bare the guilt of your sins..
Laugh, you could hear the uproar of hysteria rile your sanity.
Tears may have rolled down your cheeks, or you did none of these things..
What are you you do is the beginning of change.
Small changes make it big.
Have a nice day..